Blogging when you have tons of deadlines sure ain't wise any way you look at it, but still what's life without self expression after all? There is a debate coming up as our assignment and it is even more unwise to think that I will only get myself prepared after the submission of another assignment which would be enough to keep me occupied. And what's worst than dealing with them deadlines is dealing with it while you are groggy for God only knows why. Maybe it is my "virtual rehab" program now that I am imposing upon myself here.
Once again, is it wise to do that when you are facing tight deadlines of which one is due after another, the way college life is nowadays? Without caffeine I sure don't function half as good and yes, maybe I am proving to myself that I can do just as well without caffeine plaguing my system? When my blood reek of coffee beans? Like it not; it all boils down to my will to resist and yes, I guess being a Taurus, endurance is some sort of a gift but then again it sure takes hell of an effort for that, like seriously lots of effort involved!
It's amazing how I am writing this long after, I am already in the 5th semester (technically) although subjects-wise I am practically still in the 4th semester thanks to some dumb arrangements. So now, I guess there is no justice knowing that I enrolled earlier but some folks who enrolled later than me will be graduating at the same time with me just because some people feel like it? This is how unjust the world is today, people have lost their sense of morality. Do they need a lesson on how to reach out into their consciences?
I can tell that even the lecturers (at least some) are pissed off, but who is gonna hear them or us? Okay, so now I am no longer addicted to caffeine in a sense as I can go through most days drinking only a cuppa in the morning and it looks like the coffee powder is running out; thus it might be a good reason to challenge myself not to drink at all or something? Although I have close companions now, but there are still a few that I can't consider my "true friends" because I just know that they may not want to be there for me when I am all down and out.
And ironically, I am still friends with that betrayer? Well, college is a period in your life when everything is ironic I think. Or maybe it's just me. You have everything to talk about; classmates you secretly despise or someone you are secretly close with, although it is not obvious publicly. Like me; can I take pride in knowing that I am rather close with this girl who is cute, diligent and well...generally so adorable that it's hard not to be kind with her? Well, I guess we are two people with two contrasting personalities. Ain't that good for her?
I once said, "If it's not for bad luck, I would have no luck at all". Now, of course the only luck I ever had are the bad and hard one after all, and I see the ones who lives a much better life act as though they are born miserable or anything like that. But who knows the struggles behind innocent eyes? Some say I have girlish looking eyes, and that's why someone say she don't even see me as a guy because my eyes are telling people different or something.
College students, or perhaps only college students of today - We like to ignore things, and let it go by until we feel like doing something about it. And yes, needless to say we often pay a price for it and sometimes the price is heavy indeed. Although times have changed so much now, that collegiate life isn't half as meaningful as it was before but still there is always comfort in some friendship that we found. After all, even a team of misfits can be the coolest team ever in the name of togetherness.
I realize those who can't really blend in with the crowd or just don't have the knack to do so are the ones that are deemed misfits and yes, that's what I am and will always be. Loneliness? Well, maybe because I don't have that much company but I guess I can say I am living more meaningfully without all the glamor and popularity of being with the "in" crowd. If I was born decades before, I guess blending in with the popular crowd may not make me feel so out of place.
But being in college at my age, I know of the challenges that might present itself and yes I think, this is the semester where it seems most obvious when most my mates aren't even with me now. So I guess, being strong is indeed the only choice there is now and perhaps, it is a time to be even stronger because there are lot of changes coming my way and sometimes, I find it kind of sad because these changes reminds me of one thing I find it hard to face; adulthood!
It's amazing how I am writing this long after, I am already in the 5th semester (technically) although subjects-wise I am practically still in the 4th semester thanks to some dumb arrangements. So now, I guess there is no justice knowing that I enrolled earlier but some folks who enrolled later than me will be graduating at the same time with me just because some people feel like it? This is how unjust the world is today, people have lost their sense of morality. Do they need a lesson on how to reach out into their consciences?
I can tell that even the lecturers (at least some) are pissed off, but who is gonna hear them or us? Okay, so now I am no longer addicted to caffeine in a sense as I can go through most days drinking only a cuppa in the morning and it looks like the coffee powder is running out; thus it might be a good reason to challenge myself not to drink at all or something? Although I have close companions now, but there are still a few that I can't consider my "true friends" because I just know that they may not want to be there for me when I am all down and out.
And ironically, I am still friends with that betrayer? Well, college is a period in your life when everything is ironic I think. Or maybe it's just me. You have everything to talk about; classmates you secretly despise or someone you are secretly close with, although it is not obvious publicly. Like me; can I take pride in knowing that I am rather close with this girl who is cute, diligent and well...generally so adorable that it's hard not to be kind with her? Well, I guess we are two people with two contrasting personalities. Ain't that good for her?
I once said, "If it's not for bad luck, I would have no luck at all". Now, of course the only luck I ever had are the bad and hard one after all, and I see the ones who lives a much better life act as though they are born miserable or anything like that. But who knows the struggles behind innocent eyes? Some say I have girlish looking eyes, and that's why someone say she don't even see me as a guy because my eyes are telling people different or something.
College students, or perhaps only college students of today - We like to ignore things, and let it go by until we feel like doing something about it. And yes, needless to say we often pay a price for it and sometimes the price is heavy indeed. Although times have changed so much now, that collegiate life isn't half as meaningful as it was before but still there is always comfort in some friendship that we found. After all, even a team of misfits can be the coolest team ever in the name of togetherness.
I realize those who can't really blend in with the crowd or just don't have the knack to do so are the ones that are deemed misfits and yes, that's what I am and will always be. Loneliness? Well, maybe because I don't have that much company but I guess I can say I am living more meaningfully without all the glamor and popularity of being with the "in" crowd. If I was born decades before, I guess blending in with the popular crowd may not make me feel so out of place.
But being in college at my age, I know of the challenges that might present itself and yes I think, this is the semester where it seems most obvious when most my mates aren't even with me now. So I guess, being strong is indeed the only choice there is now and perhaps, it is a time to be even stronger because there are lot of changes coming my way and sometimes, I find it kind of sad because these changes reminds me of one thing I find it hard to face; adulthood!
