Less than three days to go before my collegiate crusade begins yet again, and another chapter will be written in my book of life which is as lengthy as the journal of an imprisoned man who has nothing to do but write the remaining of his life away in a parchments. Now, I am not sure what to expect but I doubt I will be optimistic at first, and I figured a little bit of negativity helps, one way or another. Not that I am condoning myself for not being "positive" but I guess it has to do with "healthy stress" or so? Well, just as long as it serves to my interests = good results.
Okay, we all know that in this day and age good results is not a guarantee to a good job placement. But then again, while I am at it, I want to excel as much as I could. And maybe it's "kiasuism" but that's what it takes to succeed sometimes, or maybe just a little, enough to push one to his / her peak. We all need to be pushed, and yes, oftentimes we have to push ourselves and get pushed by the surrounding burdens, trials and difficulties. It may result in countless sleepless nights, or frustrations on the highest level of the scale. Mentally, psychologically, I have to be well armed!
Been making dozens of videos lately, and I guess it helps to kill time. I am not sure if I have the time to do this in the semester later, but I sure hope I do. After all, it is a long semester and I doubt I will be too busy to get a chance to breathe or anything like that. Last semester was hell, and yeah, I sure hope it doesn't turn out to be like this again LOL! I was on the verge of giving up last semester and I even talked about it openly, and yes surprisingly, people who never actually expressed their concern to me before, actually encouraged me to go on.
Well, it is through such experiences that you learn who really cares, even if they ain't close and who doesn't even if they are near you all the time. Or how they tell you they miss you and "not used to hanging out without you" and stuff like that. These are mere words, they sure ain't promises and even if they are; are they meant to be kept or simply uttered? Now, if it's the later, it might as well be forgotten all together because it simply does not make any sense. Or rather, there is hardly a reason for those words to even be said in the first place.
But then again, it is important to know the kind of role to play in different situations. Like it not, this is really not a world where we get to say we should just ignore those we dislike completely and show all the love we can to those that we like or care about. In this very very unideal world today, that's how it is; role playing. Like those games we used to play back in high school? Back then, the quality of games lie in its plot, characters and above all; substance of the game as a whole. Not goofy CGI effects that HARDLY distorts my view of reality.
After all, perception is of much greater importance than reality and if a game that is "realistic" does not make you perceive of a greater ideal your heart yearns for, how is it called a "good game" then? Now, this is something to ponder about. Another thing to actually contemplate about; what if you found a new friend that seems to share quite some things in common with you and even though we aren't exactly each others' halves, but still so relatable. And there you are; you found someone you believe you can share a lot of your life with that someone.
Now of course it ain't gonna go further than that but what am I saying is that some people who come from a different world all together seems relatable to you than most people your age and you get this uncanny tendency to share parts of your life that if often veiled from most people you know for God knows how many years, possibly people that you know all your life yet it don't mean you can share your darkest secrets with them as though they were made to be your other half or anything like that! Yeah, I guess people know exactly what I mean.
Okay, we all know that in this day and age good results is not a guarantee to a good job placement. But then again, while I am at it, I want to excel as much as I could. And maybe it's "kiasuism" but that's what it takes to succeed sometimes, or maybe just a little, enough to push one to his / her peak. We all need to be pushed, and yes, oftentimes we have to push ourselves and get pushed by the surrounding burdens, trials and difficulties. It may result in countless sleepless nights, or frustrations on the highest level of the scale. Mentally, psychologically, I have to be well armed!
Been making dozens of videos lately, and I guess it helps to kill time. I am not sure if I have the time to do this in the semester later, but I sure hope I do. After all, it is a long semester and I doubt I will be too busy to get a chance to breathe or anything like that. Last semester was hell, and yeah, I sure hope it doesn't turn out to be like this again LOL! I was on the verge of giving up last semester and I even talked about it openly, and yes surprisingly, people who never actually expressed their concern to me before, actually encouraged me to go on.
Well, it is through such experiences that you learn who really cares, even if they ain't close and who doesn't even if they are near you all the time. Or how they tell you they miss you and "not used to hanging out without you" and stuff like that. These are mere words, they sure ain't promises and even if they are; are they meant to be kept or simply uttered? Now, if it's the later, it might as well be forgotten all together because it simply does not make any sense. Or rather, there is hardly a reason for those words to even be said in the first place.
But then again, it is important to know the kind of role to play in different situations. Like it not, this is really not a world where we get to say we should just ignore those we dislike completely and show all the love we can to those that we like or care about. In this very very unideal world today, that's how it is; role playing. Like those games we used to play back in high school? Back then, the quality of games lie in its plot, characters and above all; substance of the game as a whole. Not goofy CGI effects that HARDLY distorts my view of reality.
After all, perception is of much greater importance than reality and if a game that is "realistic" does not make you perceive of a greater ideal your heart yearns for, how is it called a "good game" then? Now, this is something to ponder about. Another thing to actually contemplate about; what if you found a new friend that seems to share quite some things in common with you and even though we aren't exactly each others' halves, but still so relatable. And there you are; you found someone you believe you can share a lot of your life with that someone.
Now of course it ain't gonna go further than that but what am I saying is that some people who come from a different world all together seems relatable to you than most people your age and you get this uncanny tendency to share parts of your life that if often veiled from most people you know for God knows how many years, possibly people that you know all your life yet it don't mean you can share your darkest secrets with them as though they were made to be your other half or anything like that! Yeah, I guess people know exactly what I mean.
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